True Loneliness
It is said that with great love comes great joy. In my life, I found that to be true. Sadly, I have also found that with great loss comes great loneliness. It’s a different loneliness than the loneliness that comes from being alone. That loneliness can fixed. An evening with friends, or a day spent with family eases that type of loneliness. The loneliness that losing your spouse brings is very different because it’s not “just” loneliness. It’s pain. It’s realizing your no longer part of an “us.” It’s the realization that something inside of yourself is now broken and can never be repaired. It can’t be, because part of you is gone forever and the part that remains is shattered and destroyed. It’s realizing that no matter what you do or how hard you try your simply existing. “Going through the motions” of living knowing that it’s all meaningless now. Everything my husband and I planned is meaningless. Everything we built, pointless. I will keep existing because he would have expected m